I'll leave it

i don't know how strong my will to leave
i don't know how long can I stay to leave
i don't know how can I hold on after i leave it
i don't know will i change after i leave it
what i know is that
i leave all my wish behind
not what i've had that is my feelin
i know i will be hurt indeed
i know i will not be able to forget it in instance
i know deep in my heart it won't be erased
i know i'm that kind of girl, too deep and too difficult to release those memories
i know, now i'm on my on feet
just on my own feet
i'll leave it
i'll release them
i'll pray for them

(repost fb's note; 23 September 2009, 21:06)

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