G Manjur

ketika yang biasanya aku andalkan untuk membuatku pingsan tak lagi mendukung
aku hanya bisa berteriak dalam kebisuanku
bingung berteriak pada siapa
karena tak ingin dianggap gila
belum
dear God; let this sore becomes the part of me. anywhere and anytime.
i'm ok...i'm alrite..

(repost fb's note; 15 Juli 2009, 12:42)

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